is it me?

do most people resent having to spend so much of their life working?

i do. yet i am strong, not weak. i can work my ass off. i am one of the most dilligent, organized, focused people i know.

is it because i expend so much energy on work that doesn't resonate within? does work hold such deep meaning for most people?

there's this CD (creative director) where i work. he's younger than me, and to him, it's all advertising, all the time. it's about the book, the thrill, the end product. i wish i were that passionate about work. or do i?

to me, work is a means to an end, a way to support a life. work is not life. work is work, or else work would be called "fun".

yet, it's not like i work in insurance. or something similarly dry. and i think even if i was over the moon about work, i still would not want to do it 50 hours a week. it's work. there's still life to be had.

and yet, i ponder the idea of getting a "real" job, in something i find more meaningful. i'd be making about 1/20th of what i do now, working more.

is that right? nope.

such is the conundrum of money vs. meaning, satisfaction vs. cash, freedom vs. happiness.