Originally uploaded by jenworth.
I'm losing my grip. By all accounts I "should" be happy. Aside from working too much, it appears that life is good.
It's not. It's stagnant.
I have decisions to make. But each decision is like a piece of a puzzle. Until "x" piece gets put in place, "y" piece cannot be found and put into it's proper spot. Life isn't as simple as this though, not as obvious, more emotional.
It's more like dominoes. One decision could put into place a whole wave of movement. Or a topple. Change will be guaranteed, and that's the only guarantee. Change. I need it, fear it, loathe it, but it desperately needs to come. One little change, or a whole lot of change. Not sure which.
It could be the season. Or it might not be. I recall last Christmas I had realizations that wound up being life changing.